Birthday

It's his birthday today. Kinda fuzzy about it 'coz we have the usual problems again. I don't know if this is really the turning point or not. I've been wondering how he feels about me and the other. It seemed to me that he loves her too but then, i know he also do the same for me. It was quite a situation. The Gospel last sunday says" you cannot serve two masters at a time". It's either you'll love or despise the other or either you'll both love each other but then neglect the other. Huh! I know. I've been there. It really is difficult and at times mind blowing. I still cling to him. Even though i know that we are hurting someone in the process but it's all part of life. We live to survive. I don't intent for someone to be hurt though. I just realized last night the reason why he can't leave him, i think. She has an ailment and i think it would jeopardize her health if he leave her. I am not that certain though if that's the case.

I went to his house just now and we were supposed to talk about the things that are happening around us. We haven't got the chance to talk 'coz we obviously didn't know where to start. It just ended with a kiss and he says that he's the only one with the problem. I don't have any problems to worry about. He says we'll talk about it some other time but till then, he'll stay the same. I don't know if he really love the other, he also clings to what we have and furthermore, asked me to do what i usually did for him even if the other already knew about it. Huh! It's kinda rough and tough but i have a huge hope that we will be together for the rest of our lives and that we'll get through this together. I am not mean. I don't intend to hurt anybody. I just happen to be in love and fighting for what life i may have with him.